I thought
how can you not see how you are hurting me?
How can you see me cry
& not know the pain it took
for me to not even have the words anymore,
to not even know what to do but be overcome
& leak out
because when it doesn't make sense
even my body tries to help.
Even my body feels how heavy my mind is
& tries to release some of that pain;
it tries to expel it out, to let it flow,
let it roll & melt down my jaw.
But you stare blankly back at me
& I realize when I wipe my eyes,
when I smear the image of you away,
the world broke your heart a long time ago.