change is...good?

i remember you. i heard you say i was hot in the library my junior year in high school. i smiled at this mistakenly heard information, cause i thought you were too. and the years have been kinder to you now. your skin was not so blessed..but i saw the smile and the pretty eyes. i heard you talk about bands i liked too. some of your friends were my friends. no hormones or pores would keep me from noticing these things. but now, i can see that your face is clear and your language has adapted to boring. i have to say i liked you better when you had that touch of insecurity. when you were a little more polluted i guess

truth

the thought of you not being as interested in what i have to say on here..or anywhere else saddens me

random late night blah blah

i am obsessed with people. i pay more attention to details about you than you would think. i observe you. i see you. i know you.
i am thrilled by the thought of finding other people just like me. i want to find you. i want to know you. i want to inspire you and be inspired by you.

i want to find someone who enjoys this kind of thing. this kind of i dont even know what im saying thing.
beautiful through and through. somebody that doesnt think words are just garbage. somebody that pays attention. not just in that obvious way. i mean really shutting up for a minute. i mean trying to find meaning in something that appears to have none.

that, and someone who would be chill to smoke with.

bouncing

i had a dream that i didnt know how to run
when my legs started to gather speed
i just awkwardly bounced on the ground
it was embarrassing, i thought "how do i not know how to run?"
but maybe that isnt such a bad thing

mountains

you said you don't want to live
where the mountains are
you'd like to see it all
as flat beneath the skies
clear blues and wounded grays
framed by straight lines
and forward eyes
all plain to see before you
certainly no peaks to slip down
nor tunnels to retire to
no hopes to lose balance over
no, certainly not
you told me you dont like to see them in the distance
i said, "they're not in the way, but something to aim for"
and at that you said "that's interesting"
and nothing more.

head shoulders knees and toes

i gotta hand it to you
youre really keeping me at arms length
the coldest of shoulders
spikes pain in my neck
its all in your head they say
but what about your chest
or your gut
or those legs that shake
those feet kept on toes
that ass that's fallen backwards
you can blame the sum of parts
and the parts of some
all you want