You told me to look in your eyes,

the black holes of your pupils 

while all your desires 

were swallowing my skin. 

You wanted me to see that you could be free for a moment. 

You could forget everything harsh while inside the idea of intimacy. 

For a moment you could forget who you were. 

You grabbed me like everything you wish you could for yourself. 

My touch spread love over your skin. 

The stars laced in my eyes & were lit by my ideals. 

I created constellations to predict the future 

& I scared the fuck out of you. 

Our world together couldnt be sustained. 

It erupted & froze before my sight. 

Our passion was a lesson neither of us wanted to learn. 

.Laura Curren.

I could hurt you & you could hurt me. 

Isn't that the point? The duality of life. 

The greatest joys can bring the greatest pain. 

Every step closer to your heart 

could be considered insane. 

But I crack open my own over & over 

just to see what’s inside. 

I soak in my storm 

& though I’m heavy, 

I feel alive. 

I feel a part of an understanding. 

.Laura Curren. 

I get comfortable. 

The reality of how things have evolved sets in. 

I can feel a change. I fear it too. 

I panic for a moment. But I want it.  

I want it so bad I make it my world 

& forget I had my own before it. 

So I tell myself to relax. 

but I feel their sentiments & affection weaken 

the deeper I get. 

I feel a dull paranoia reminding me this has all 

happened before.

The further I reach for validation 

I'm left to look only in my own eyes & wonder what 

invites faded promises. But my blame serves no purpose. 

I look in my own eyes & see a version of myself who tells me this will all make sense someday. These emotional tests. 

These days. This doubt. It will all amount to something better, lighter, than this feeling. 

I'll keep telling myself that until I believe it.