Why would you attack your own face? 

             That’s like the billboard of your details,

             the display case of your moods.

             Why would you show people

             this is how you treat yourself,

             this is what you do. 

             Beauty is in the heart,

             but what you see affects you.

             I can’t tell you why 

             my fingernails become knives

             & pick at every suggestion of imperfection. 

             but I would say  

             this is a weird form of control.

             This is a strange way to hinder myself.

             Some small relief 

             for a bigger picture I don’t want to see.

             It’s a compulsion

             to dig at the surface but not within.

             I can edit myself & paint on my pride,

             I can hide behind sunglasses 

             & filters

             but ultimately,

             I can’t mask my mentality.

              .Laura Curren.