I don't care if it makes me seem crazy. Sometimes in the most stressful times I would just scream in my car. I would scream as loud as I could, driving on the freeway. I wonder if anyone heard me. I have a mean scream. I'm considering sending it to horror movies. It's piercing and high with pain. It's jagged and awful. It scrapes every last bit of tar off of my ribs and vibrates out of my throat like some cactus-y jerk. Imagine it. Imagine doing that. Don't you feel better?