I have a self destructive troll in my head

who smashes all the shit I'm supposed to do.

It says:

"Oh yeah go ahead, 

send that crazy message,

tell him how you really feel! 

Let your emails, real mails,

garbage, dishes, laundry

thoughts, wishes,

debt

pile up.

Beat yourself up with your own attitude 

then let me pick my teeth 

with the sticks & stones I throw at you.

Keep imagining me as a beast

fighting your dreams 

rather than yourself."